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[23 Feb 2005|11:55am] |
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So again i have neglected to update, so i will now.... Well this is a nice week off of school and i am happy, but i have like 15 projects to do so i'm like oh my god i am never going to get them all done...and in case anyone cares the english packet is hard...or i don't seem to understand it so its one of the two...
I went to vist's some college's over the weekend
TUFTS UNIVERSITY- my dream school but i can't go there, they don't have my major
NORTHEASTERN UNIVERSITY- amazing..and it has my major
BOSTON UNIVERSITY- lovely and it has my major so it's a good school
Unfortunately unless i get lots of grants and scholorships i'd never be able to afford these schools
Moving on, i have a new belief...its not about finding the right, the perfect guy..its about accepting the imperfect guy and turning him into your right guy, your perfect guy....it's not trying to kiss all the frogs and see which ones turn into the handsome prince..its about finding the frog that just works with all his short comings and all. So those really high impossible to reach standards aren't worth it...sometimes we have to lower them to find that imperfect frog that just seems to work....
Everyone should go out and by last week's cd because it is amazing....
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Well since jena and jen got me addicted to myspace..i've neglected my live journal but i'm going to update today
So yea i have a myspace...its amusing
I've overly busy...because if i don't get all this work done it will never get done so this is a list of what i have done and still have to finish
1.Italian extra credit essay(300 words) "my life as a..."
2.Italian poster contest (stupid if you ask me)
3.Out line for ap psych project
4.ap us dbq *personally i'd rather have a thematic since i haven't written one since 8th grade minus the midterm*
5.ap english essay
6.ap english outside reading book
7.ap english outside reading essay
8.ap english term paper
9.suny precalc paper
10.study words for italian vocab on "amore"
11.Study for ap us test on reconstruction
i believe that's it but who knows at this point... but i might have missed something along the way...
Other than the abundance of school work i planned out my classes for next year 9 period day so i can take more classes and considering there is so much i want to take 9 periods is a good thing..so heres the classes
1.Ap eng lit
2.Ap econ/honors gov't
3.Suny calculus
4.Ap stat
6.gym/study hall
7.lunch
8.computerized accounting
9. scale business *if i can't get that i want business ownership/mkting*
also tomorrow is valentine's day and i again don't have a valentine..tragically sad..but i'm happy so who needs one right?
other than that the family is at odds again but that isn't news....so i'll see how the wedding and the sweet 16 goes....but the whole thing is just added drama that i don't want or need and it's sad and i'm going to stop writting about it because i'll just start crying again
so yea that's all for you...if you haven't check out myspace
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| Take me to never-never land |
[30 Jan 2005|03:05pm] |
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Take me to never-never land....I want to believe the best for him, that he is different, and for good reasons...i want to believe that he is going to do the right things now, make the right choices and stop running....i want to believe that so badly for because he deserves that, so even though common sense is telling me not to believe in him, i am going to believe...
Alright so are we all ready to hear about the phone call friday night....now most of you know i called vin like wedensday to ask him a question, but he didn't pick up so like always i leave a message and assume that he just wont call back..because vin doesn't call back or at least he hasn't in the reccent past. But Friday night around 10:30 my phone starts to ring and surprise surprise it was vin, so i fell outta my bed and was like in total shock because he was calling me back..on a friday..at night and when he was with people...yea so not like him so i'll leave it at that.
So school starts up again tomorrow and i so don't want to go back...i'm not looking foward to classes and people talking about midterms ugh....only 20 more weeks than we are seniors..well i guess i better start planning where i am going to go to college and future jobs...speaking of jobs i really need a new job, anyone got any ideas?
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[28 Jan 2005|01:00pm] |
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So tired of the way that you use me
So tried of the way that you treat me
I promise that today is going to be different
Today, i'm not going to care about anything
I won't care about you not caring
I won't care about how you picked her over me
No, today is going to be different
I tell myself that everyday, but today i'm going to follow it
So tired of the lies, and the games
So tired of the regrets and the hugs
I'm going to be stronger today
Today is going to be different
Yea, i'll keep telling myself that
Alright, onto something- i want to scream, cry, be held, hit something/someone, but its not fair to the person i want to do this with or me... To the person, because its not their problem and to me because i don't want them to see me like this. Yea today is one of those days
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| Double standards |
[27 Jan 2005|01:07pm] |
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ALright the topic of double standards...for men towards women and women towards men....this might be a long entry, so if you don't care than don't read, and hell if you think it might be offensive than don't read it...it's a simple concept....
On to the double standards....Men towards women first
1.Why is it that men can sleep with 20 girls and be called a stud and yet if a girl slept with 20 guys she would be a slut?
Do i have an answer for this, nope - i haven't got the slightest clue. Maybe men feel that its a man thing to sleep around and that they really value women's purity? Or maybe since generally its a guy thing to sleep around, maybe just maybe a guy would feel threatened if women slept around.
2. Why can a guy date more than one girl and be praised for it, but heaven forbid a girl dates more than one guy, she's a tramp...or a bitch..et certera
Again, i don't have a good answer to this, in fact i don't have anything to say for this..it baffles me.
***Now i am not saying i personally agree we should all date as many people as we can at one time or sleep with 100s of people, but these double standards have to go***
3. Now, this is a work standard..everything is a man's world, yet women can do the work just as good sometimes even betterd depending on the job, so why is it still hard for a women to climb the corporate latter..why is there a glass roof so to speak???
Other, than old societial beliefs i am clueless, and this one makes me very mad...but that is another story.
There are many more double standards that men have towars women but i'm not typing them all out
Women towards men
1. Alright, how come men have to be honest all the time and we can lie to them if its "for their own good"
Well in my defense because i do this, it makes us feel safer, but it isn't right. It makes us feel safer, because its our way, well my way, or protecting myself from getting hurt, i feel like they don't know all of me and can't hurt all of me...
Umm i'm drawing a blank so this is where i'll leave it, if you have any other feel free to leave them in a comment
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| This week |
[24 Jan 2005|11:43am] |
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Well this week is going to be insane...between midterms...dates for jr.prom....regular work...going out...and dealing with the drama of fred i want to shoot myself.
Midterm times-
Monday- 8-9:55am-> AP ENGLISH
Tuesday-10:10-12:05-> Italian 4/5
12:20-2:15-> AP PSYCHOLOGY
Wenseday-12;20-2:05-> AP US HISTORY
Thursday-8-9:55->SUNY PRECALCULUS...who puts a math midterm at 8am anyway
Well now that the midterm times was cleared, jr. prom...omg finding a date is a lot harder than it seems, but i guess i don't have to go with some its not that big of a deal anyway its jr. prom.....
Now for the more interesting fred news...i had a heart attack on sunday, he called me....i know shocking...and the first thing i asked him was who died or is in the hospital? and he waS like what the hell are you talking about...and i was like well its simple you don't call, so umm i am going to assume that since you called something bad happened...and he was like umm no, and i was like well than why are you calling?...and he was like i got a question for you and i was like alright ask me than...he was like, if you had to choose between something childlike-say a candy or lolly-pop, that is just a comfort or something more teenish-say a car or crack, that is bad for you sometimes but makes you feel good the other times which would you pick? and i was like is the same as the chair and the dog comparison, and he was like answer the damn question, than i said..fine between what you gave me i'd pick childlike, but at this point between you and barney since that's who this is about i'd pick neither, because you have to give me stupid comparisons, you don't call and you don't care and barney doesn't call..plus you both have a willma and betty and your other concubines why bother with me?..he was like that's not what this is about so just stop...but why childlike, wouldn't you want teenish? and i was like..not if its bad for me so this part of our convo is over any more questions?...and he was like just one....and i was like sure...so he was like...ok i want to make her forgive me so i promised i'd call monday, but how do i make her trust me.....and i was like, thats for her to decide not me, and besides you can't make anybody trust you...they just have to...he was like alright than bye, and i was like...yea bye and fred i hope it works out for you, and he was like thanks me too, and sweets i hope you get everything i never gave you bye...click....and so ends the convo....thats all
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| a choice |
[17 Jan 2005|10:05am] |
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Alright before i end my three day weekend with jones extra credit, an essay for morsette and 16 pages of psych definitions i have to make a choice.
Alright so you have survived your past and you are driving on this road, and it's really long and empty. Now you finally get to this point and you have yoru choice of going one of four ways, but you aren't sure so you put your car into reverse anad you back up and than go foward and you keep doing that, until you finally realize that your car is going to run out of gas and you have to make a choice.
So you have these four roads...
Now Road one takes you to this town from your past called Fredstown..now this town maade you happy and you wanted to be part of it really badly once, but it lied to you, it made you believe that it wanted you to be part of it but before you were able to tell the town that you wanted in it picked some other people to joing in your place....
The second Road takes you to this town called Barneyville...Now this town, always said it wanted you to be part of it but it was a bit full at the time, but it was willing to wait for a vacany as long as you were, now you would have been happy there if you could have convinced yourself that you didn't want to be part of Fredstown...
The third road takes you to Randomland..now this town is a piece of work, it made you feel used and abused but it would never let you go no matter how hard you fought, and at one point it disallusioned you into believing that this was the best place for you...
Now the last road takes you on a journey, because you don't know where the road leads, you don't know how long it will be until you find a town or even if there is one on the road, you don't know if the road is a bumpy road or a smooth road....
all you know is that unless you want to be stranded in the middle of no where you have to pick a road to take.. So which do you take???? All opinions are welcomed and appreciated
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[11 Jan 2005|03:58pm] |
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Tell me why do parents attempt to hide their financial problems from their almost 17 year old children??? Are they trying to protect them? Do they want to keep deluding them into beleiving that everything is alright? I can understand if its a five year old or a ten year old but almost 17, something about it doesn't sit right with me. It's wonderful that our parents want to protect us from the bad things like bankruptcy and being brooke or poor but if the child knows about their parents bounced cheek or declined credit card, shouldn't the parent tell their children? The child can't bring it up because lets face it the parent is either going to ...a-lie-making the child feel stupid...or..b-tell the truth-making the child feel bad because of all the test they are making them pay for..3 AP exams..an SAT..2 SAT...a suny college corse...an adelphi college corse...so you don't want to take them so your parent can help themselves financially. Than you realize that you can't make it better for them, they have to do it on their own, and you feel useless, after-all they have given up everything for you and what have you done..absolutely nothing but take their money and spend it on useless things like nails and cds that you barely use.
I wish there was something i could do to make things easier but there is nothing i can do, but focus on school and do so well that i can get a full ride to any college or unversity i want. I'm sorry
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[07 Jan 2005|04:58pm] |
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I miss...those carefree days where my biggest concern was what color pen should i write in
I miss those days when i didn't have to worry about the fact that my ass looked big in those jeans
I miss the days when, my daddy...no scratch that my uncle would hold me and tell me that life is a grand adventure and it would all work out
I miss the days when my hardest homework question was what two numbers add up to 22 and subtract to 11
yea i miss those days....
Alright onto the other i miss type stuff
I wonder when its all over, and not death over dating over, will it matter how many people you have dated? Will it be better to be with less or more? and how do you know when you have met that one perfect person for you??
I don't know why i thought of these i just did, so i'll take a different look than that of my own personal opinion...
I think it does matter how many people you have dated, i think we as a whole would rather be with someone who has only been with 5 people instead of 50. And not because dating 50 makes them trashy, it just seems like something would have to be wrong, i mean 50 people thats a big number, so new questions would be aroused like do you have an emotional issue?? are you crazy? mentally inbalanced? and you can't say that you wouldn't think it, because you would.
I think that you have met the perfect person for you when they make you feel safe and insecure at the same time, when you feel as though you are flying but you know you are perfectly grounded. None of this finishing each others sentences and this person is the yin to my yang. It doesn't take time, you just know that this is the person, no questions. The day you stop questioning the person is the moment you know that the person is your future.
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p.s-i'd write about quarterback and person but idk anymore only quarterback
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[31 Dec 2004|12:48pm] |
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LOVE is patient and kind.
Love is not jealous, it does not brag, and it is not proud
LOVE is not rude, it is not selfish, and does not get upset with others.
LOVE does not count up wrongs that have been done.
LOVE is not happy with evil but is happy with the truth.
Love patiently accepts all things.
It always trusts, always hopes, and it always remains strong.
Figured i'd share that..now if only i knew that three years ago, or even two days ago.
"and silently the sense abandon all defenses".....name the song if you can?
Oh yea and happy NEW YEAR...2005.....24 MORE WEEKS UNTIL WE ARE SENIORS.....ITS ALL ALMOST OVER
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[30 Dec 2004|11:57am] |
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Alright...i'm going to post this..granted i have no idea why because i don't want pity...alright last night i went out with a friend and his friend...keep in mine that is friend shall remain nameless and ageless, in other words don't ask......ok anyway i don't know where the hell we ended up but it was somewhere...ok so we had fun, there were drinks i remember that much, it was late and i wanted to go home but i was in no condition to walk, so i wanted to call one of the two idiots *granted i'm not speaking to one but thats another story* so i found a quiet place to hide and take my cell out without friend finding me, i went crazy looking for the idiots number in my cell but they where gone...and i cried...friend found me...and i can't tell you what happened...for reasons being that 1-i have no bloody idea and 2- pain and black and blues don't leave a nice picture, so i can only speculate..but no one panic i am fine and alive and in one piece.....
Ok onto the mystery of where there numbers went...well that was me listening to a piece of advice from lisa who was like to cut them out of your life just get rid of there numbers but until than change the names to things you woudln't like think of...well i apparently followed the advice which isn't good when i'm drunk and drugged and who knows what else....ugh damnit, however i must have called someone last night because i remember pushing a button on a name and attempting to speak when friend came..must find out who person was..but i can't just randomly call people and be like did i call you last night?
Ok so something to learn....1- don't go out with friend who is older and get drunk...2- don't randomly change people's name in your phone book no matter how mad you are, or if you are trying to get them out of your life, it doesn't work when you need them...3- avoid waking up with a headache to kill, black and blues in random places and over all pain.
alright i'm done
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| Oh what a beautiful life |
[28 Dec 2004|04:22pm] |
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Today is beautiful...do you want to know why???
Well he called, we faught, its done and over with..i'm not his lapdog and he is out of my life....today is beautiful...
Word to the wise.."love is never easy...if it was it would be called hate".....don't question, just except and follow.....
Today all i did was fight with him....finish all vacation assignments...chat with some friends and make plans.....tomorrow is another day...right..maybe i can get something accomplished....
Love actually is all around..the only problem is to fins it you can't be looking......so close your eyes and walk foward...alright i'm done i swear.....dani baby
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| this is all i'm asking for |
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I don't want a lot for christmas...
all i want is to be loved by my friends and family, i want to know that they all love me and not just have to assumer that they do because they are my friends and my family.. so to all of you in my family, mommy, grandma, nonni, uncle danny, aunt wendy, aunt marybeth, sam, nick, marissa, daniel, liz, my cousins in italy and in america, i love you all, and you all have such a powerful impact in my life, even if we can't speak to eachother everyday or we don't agree on anything, without you in my life i wouldn't be the person i am today, A special i love you to my uncle sal, i hate that god had to take you away from us, you were so young not even 40, i miss you more everyday and without i feel so lost, but i know that you had the biggest impact on my life and i owe my heart and ability to love....to my friends..jenn, lisa..lisa..jena..jen..jackie...jesse...christine...sara..carly...katie..steph..loren...misha...even brian, bobby, vince, vinny, carrizzo...and everyone else ...you have all changed my life in so many ways that i couldn't even begin to name, like you have made me more down to earth, more funny and accepting of my faults, my sense of humor has gone up with you all in my life, you have introduced me into new ways of thinking and new things, without you all i wouldn't be able to be the understanding person that i am today, you have educated me in ways outside of books and streets, i love you all so much and even if we fight i would never trade in any moments with any of you....even to my father...daddy,you hate me and thats ok you have shown me through your hate that i don't need to parents to feel loved and to have a fmaily, and that i don't need my daddy to protect me, i have people who really care about me for that....so thanks....
so everyone i love you
.....this is all i'm asking for
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So excited for tonight....its Christine's sweet 16....happy 16th doll...our baby has grown up...yay
Well i have figure out what i want this year....hasn't changed since last year...and the year before that...and..you get the point
Santa can you hear me.
I want my baby (baby, yeah)
I want someone to love me someone to hold me.
Maybe (maybe, maybe maybe.) he'll be all my own in a big red bow
Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year and all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want, just for me underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here.
Santa thats my only wish this year.
Alright my request to this "santa".... this "baby" he has to be: *oh yes morsette should be proud, i used a thingy with two dots* smart, funny, carismatic, charming, personable, friendly, understanding, empathic, sympathetic,cute *baby face*, hot *nice muscle body*, a plan for the future, adventerous, optimistic, a realist, somewhat jealous *oh morsette might yell i used a somewhat*, somewhat possessive *oops i did it again* and honest
yes umm other than that...yea that concludes it
Ok if someone asked you a question and you had two minutes to answer, but there was a right and a wrong answer and it can only be one word...how would you answer...WHAT'S THE ONE WORD THAT HAS A PERFECT MEANING?....now if you are like me you answered family or maybe you answered love...well apparently those are wrong...
MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL...AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE ELSE...LOVE YOU ALL..UPDATE LATER
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Omg its the worse thing in the world..i'm sick..me miss. ap-student-i-go-to-school-with-the-flu...ugh damn the student body that got me sick...ugh feel like crap so i guess i'll write my english essay.. my problem is that i had math homework and english and italian homework to do in study hall today so i didn't bring it with me so i have to all manage to get it done tomorrow morning and during lunch and take a math test and i have to hand in jones' assignment that was due today that i finished and made all perfect on sunday..damn being sick!!!!!!!!!
anyway moving on i'm setting standards...
1. I WILL NOT GO OUT WITH A MAN WHO HASN'T ASKED ME OUT FIRST.
2. I WILL NOT GO OUT WITH A MAN WHO KEEPS ME WAITING BY THE PHONE.
3. I WILL NOT DATE A MAN WHO ISN'T SURE HE WANTS TO DATE ME.
4. I WILL NOT DATE A MAN WHO MAKES ME FEEL SEXUALLY UNDESIRABLE.
5. I WILL NOT DATE A MAN WHO DRINKS OR DOES DRUGS TO AN EXTENT THAT MAKES ME UNCOMFORTABLE
6. I WILL NOT BE WITH A MAN WHO'S AFRAID TO TALK ABOUT OUR FUTURE.
7. I WILL NOT, UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES, SPEND MY PRECIOUS TIME WITH A MAN WHO HAS ALREADY REJECTED ME.
8. I WILL NOY DATE A MAN WHO IS MARRIED, DATING SOMEONE OR ANY OTHER INSANE VARIATION OF BEING UNAVAIBLE.
9. I WILL NOT BE WITH A MAN WHO IS NOT CLEARLY A GOOD, KIND, LOVING PERSON.
Ok those are the new standards..now as hard as they will be to follow i'm swearing on my life that i will follow them.
In case i can't follow these reasons and i die, do me a favor someone...go into my phone book in my cell and call Brain..read him these standards and than tell him i died and its his fault, hang up and move on with your greiving. *that is assuming i will be missed*
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Well last night was so much fun, so many funny moments..katie was hilarious..so many funny comments....we watched a few movies love actualy was on of them and katie kept forgeting to skip the random porn people who really had nothing to do with the purpose of the movie, excpet to show that even porn stars fall in love while making a movie and randomly getting it on before knowing each others names....anyway the prime ministers little dance was so cute and the christmas carol guy..omg i would melt in an instant.... and billy bob thortan as our president was so cute..he cleans up very well....its sad that he is better looking than our actual president but that is another story in itself.....on and alan rickman ...well he is alan rickman..not much else can be said about him other than wow...and the little kid and liam...oh how cute the accent especially.....the moral...love actually is everywhere.
the next movie was deleiver us from him with the psycho girl and the player playa...well wow i can see myself being a relationship like that...and apparently we call it "burning a hole in the floor" now instead of "oh we screwed".....yea well yea
oh we also loving talked about relationships...yea and for the record i am not dating him(*aka fred...aka asshole...aka the stupid one) and yes the worst mistake of my life was apparently said last night and i really thought more of you knew that...oops..yea well we aren't going to talk about that, in fact i'd rather not remember it.... and poor katie dated john...if i knew before thats who the boyfriend was i would have warned you...sorry...well yea
so yea came home....sorry carly i couldn't make your party i ended up out later than i originally thought..hope you had fun..happy belated 18th...
oh i have a story....yay story time...well not really but you get to hear it anyway....it must have been like 2 am my phone fully charged and all well i was asleep..those jones assignments put me out and its ringing...and i'm like fuck i don't want to get up ...but what do i do...i get up..why do i get up?..because i know its him (aka fred..aka asshole..aka the stupid one) ...i swear he calls me so late because he knows i wont give him a huge fights...alright so i was like what do you want...he's like to talk..and i was like listen unless someone died..is currently in the hospital or has recently lost a body part in a horrificly freak accident can it wait until i'm actually awake and thinking of normal non-funny but sarcastic comments? and he was like no because one you seem awake now and two your already sarcastic which is always funny and three i don't need you confusing me any more than i already am...so i stupidly go alright wonderful speak... so he starts well you know the summer was hard for me and i was like don't do this, don't be a ass you can't change the past..he's like i know just listen.. i and lot of girls and i kept hurting you because you are too good for me... and i was like wonderful... and he than went on to bring up another girl,carly, he was like look i need you to understand what the hell happened and why i did what i did....and i was like i don't want to hear it....and he was like well tough..you where leaving me and i was alone and i was like i was going away to be with family before you came back into the picture its not like i was running away, you asshole...and he was like i'm sorry i see that now and i want to make it all up to you but there is no way i can...and i was like wait you can..he's like how..and i said you want me to trust you tell me the truth about everything and he's like no i can't and i'm like than lose my number and forget me and he was like i want to protect you, i need to, you deserve it and if i tell you the entire truth about me and the past you are going to hate me and you are going never forgive and that beautiful innocence that you have will be gone and i was like brian after the shit i've been through the innocence i had was gone. and he's like not and i'm like bri its gone and hes like wait...and i'm like what and he's like say it again and i was like say what again..he was like what you just said and i was like bri? and he's like you haven't called me that since you trusted me and i was like brian i've always trusted you, i've been mad at you at times but i've always trusted you which has always been my problem..and he's like i love you..and i'm like why..he's like because you trust me, you care, your innocent, you make me feel complete and i was like and i'm sure you said the same to stacy, jen and every one else and he's like but i've never meant it with anyone but you...and i was like listen i'm not going to do this right now and he's like i promise i'll make it safe for you again.
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Well it has been a while since i last updated and i felt like being emotionally draining so i'm updating...and i know its going to sound like i am bitching but deal..
ok before i go all emotionally draining i'd like to say congrats to carly who go into townsen..townson? not sure its the college in maryland though...
ok onto my complaint well not really a complaint...
i have a question what happens when you are going into something that you asked for but the more you know the more stronger you get this gut feeling against it? the problem is you promised you best friend and this person that you would meet but your gut is screaming stay away....because something is wrong? and you can't tell your best friend i'm sorry i can't meet this person even though i begged you to let me meet said person because they would than be dissappointed in you and they would be mad at you and you don't want that because you adore your best friend and would rather suffer through all 7 circles of hell before you let them be mad at you. * the they and the them refer to your best friend not the said person*
on the one hand i feel horrible because something just tells me that its wrong and i shouldn't meet said person and than on the other i feel like i have too what the hell do i do? i wish i was able to have gotten this over with last friday but i had a family thing * which was the equivalent of death if you ask me* and a doctor's appointment *which was just a violation of my 8th amendment, family and doctor with-in ten minutes of each other, now thats just cruel and unusal* so what am i supposed to do, i ask this again, do i just meet this person and worse case senario i have an incredible bad day and than feel bad that i went through the whole thing? or do i flat out tell both my friend and said person that i'm not interested and that my gut is just screaming that something is off with this whole senario and risk losing one of my best friends? I wish anyone who reads this could tell me what to do but chances are you cant. whats worse is that i'm typing this for my lj readers to read and my best friend reads my lj and shes going to know how i feel based on the above..ugh i hate myself right now..i feel horrible..i'm useless and don't deserve such amazing friends
i was going to write about something else but that seems pointless...
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Alright so yesterday i went shopping with my family and me and the wonderful sam got onto the conversation about the real meaning of the all around the mulberry bush thing. For those who don't know the song let me give you the lines
ALL AROUND THE MULBERRY BUSH
THE MONKEY CHASED THE WEASEL
THE MONKEY THOUGHT IT SO MUCH FUN
POP WENT THE WEASEL
alright now what exactly does this little thing mean because
1) what is a mulberry bush?
2) don't monkey's live in like jungle/rainforest places
3) don't weasel's live in like prairies?
Anyway so we figured it has to have a double meaning, so me and sam things its about sex... and so apparently does everyone else i asked anyway theory number 1 *thank you sam*
1-well see the bush is apparently the female and the weasel is the male and the monkey is well the thrid member of this party *not sure on the gender* and well the monkey is having fun and the the weasel apparently pops
Theory two
monkey = guy
weasel =female
weasel didn't have fun until she went pop
theory three
well the monkey(male) is trying to get the weasel(female) into bed(mulberry bush) and finally does and the moneky is having so much fun doing its riding act and the weasel is all board until ahah it went pop
so does anyone else have an opinion on this or know the actual meaning?
Oh did anyone else know that ring around the rosey was about the black death in europe?
And remember it is always better to be a dork because 1- dorks rule to world and 2- a dork can always un-dork themselves
and no sam, we are not talking dork as in a whale's penis...we are talking dork as in nerd.
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I had the funniest convo with jenn..she really makes the shopping rules more amusing among other things
AHellAngel22: did you read
xSoCcErChIcKx10: i was then i got distracted lol
AHellAngel22: lol
AHellAngel22: you need the link or no?
xSoCcErChIcKx10: noo i got it
AHellAngel22: ok
xSoCcErChIcKx10: ughhh people gotta stop talking to me im only up to rule 3 for these presents lol
AHellAngel22: lol
AHellAngel22: aww
AHellAngel22: away message
xSoCcErChIcKx10: this is very confusing lol
AHellAngel22: what is
AHellAngel22: which part i'll explain
xSoCcErChIcKx10: the wholeee thing
AHellAngel22: its telling you what guys like and why ...i.e what to buy them
xSoCcErChIcKx10: yea but those things are crazy
AHellAngel22: take rule one- men love cordless drills...so buy him one even if he has 20 he wont complain
AHellAngel22: yes well you are shopping for a guy so what the hell do you expect
xSoCcErChIcKx10: see i would complain
xSoCcErChIcKx10: wtf will i do with 20 of the same things
AHellAngel22: but you are a girl and have a brain that is not driven by testosterone and sex
xSoCcErChIcKx10: noo if i was a guy i still would
xSoCcErChIcKx10: brb dinner then u can help me more??
AHellAngel22: lol
AHellAngel22: yes i can help
xSoCcErChIcKx10 is away at 6:16 PM
AHellAngel22: when do report cards get mailed home
Auto response from xSoCcErChIcKx10: I am away from my computer right now.
xSoCcErChIcKx10 returned at 6:44 PM
xSoCcErChIcKx10: weds
xSoCcErChIcKx10: so tomorrow lol
AHellAngel22: ok
xSoCcErChIcKx10: hold on
xSoCcErChIcKx10 is away at 6:45 PM
AHellAngel22: do i have to explain anything else to you on the shopping rules
xSoCcErChIcKx10 returned at 6:54 PM
xSoCcErChIcKx10: u gotta explain it all!!
AHellAngel22: lol every rule
xSoCcErChIcKx10: why do i hafta buy the man tickets to all teams that playin detroit when i live in new york!!
AHellAngel22: its speaking in general
AHellAngel22: any type of sports ticket will work
xSoCcErChIcKx10: oh
xSoCcErChIcKx10: lol
AHellAngel22: please tell me you understand rule 13
xSoCcErChIcKx10: yea i dont get it
xSoCcErChIcKx10: why do i hafta refer back to 8 which was about a label maker
AHellAngel22: A 13 C.......12 13 14
AHellAngel22: WHAT DO YOU SEE
xSoCcErChIcKx10: he would lable his chainsaw
AHellAngel22: no he would use it for everything
AHellAngel22: cutting things
AHellAngel22: i.e you
xSoCcErChIcKx10: wat do u mean what do i see
AHellAngel22: tell me what you see
AHellAngel22: with that im what do you see
xSoCcErChIcKx10: what i see with?
xSoCcErChIcKx10: wat am i suppose to look at
AHellAngel22: what i typed
xSoCcErChIcKx10: wat did u type?
AHellAngel22: A 13 C.......12 13 14
xSoCcErChIcKx10: i see letters and numbers
AHellAngel22: are you sure
AHellAngel22: ??
xSoCcErChIcKx10: yea
AHellAngel22: do you realize that the b is the same as 13
xSoCcErChIcKx10: ok
xSoCcErChIcKx10: wat does that mea
xSoCcErChIcKx10: n
AHellAngel22: its a psych thing...thanks
AHellAngel22: you have now made my hw complete
xSoCcErChIcKx10: wat
AHellAngel22: alright back to the rules
AHellAngel22: it was my psych hw
xSoCcErChIcKx10: omg im sooo confused
xSoCcErChIcKx10: :-\
AHellAngel22: lol alright let me explain
xSoCcErChIcKx10: that had nothing to do with a chainsaw?
AHellAngel22: i needed to complete my ap psych hw
AHellAngel22: nothing to do with a chainsaw
xSoCcErChIcKx10: i thought thats wat we were talking about lol
xSoCcErChIcKx10: the whole time lol
AHellAngel22: lol sorry
AHellAngel22: lol aww jenn i love you
xSoCcErChIcKx10: wow that just flew over my head
AHellAngel22: lol
AHellAngel22: ok
AHellAngel22: back to the rules
AHellAngel22: what else don't you get
xSoCcErChIcKx10: wat does the chainsaw mean and having to go back to rule 8!!!!
xSoCcErChIcKx10: i dont get that!!!
xSoCcErChIcKx10 signed off at 7:03 PM
xSoCcErChIcKx10 signed on at 7:03 PM
AHellAngel22: ok with 8 its a label maker and everything gets labelled
AHellAngel22: now with a chainsaw everything would be chainsawed...i.e chopped into bitty pieces
xSoCcErChIcKx10: yea so hes gonna label his chainsaw?
AHellAngel22: lol oh god
AHellAngel22: no
AHellAngel22: he'll just use it a lot
AHellAngel22: to chop everyting from his dinner to the computer
xSoCcErChIcKx10: why the comp
AHellAngel22: he's a cuy
AHellAngel22: guy*
xSoCcErChIcKx10: is hes like mental or something
AHellAngel22: they do stupid
AHellAngel22: things*
AHellAngel22: yes mental
AHellAngel22: stick with that
xSoCcErChIcKx10: i dont want my man to be mental
AHellAngel22: wow jenn you make these rules more fun....haha..well than don't buy him a chainsaw
xSoCcErChIcKx10: well wat if i had to bc he wanted to chop down a tree?
AHellAngel22: buy him an axe
xSoCcErChIcKx10: all right
AHellAngel22: ok
AHellAngel22: next
xSoCcErChIcKx10: why would u buy a guy a label maker
xSoCcErChIcKx10: im not getting that lol
xSoCcErChIcKx10: what good is that
xSoCcErChIcKx10: why are they playing christmas music on z100!!!!
xSoCcErChIcKx10: its not even thanksgiving!!!
AHellAngel22: because it labels everything and men can lebel everything so they are not calling their girlfriends every two seconds to go honey where are my socks when they are on his feet
xSoCcErChIcKx10: u cant play christmas till after thanksgiving!!
AHellAngel22: well not in this society
xSoCcErChIcKx10: ughhhh i love thanksgiving and i swear its the forgotten holiday!!
xSoCcErChIcKx10: and that makes me mad
AHellAngel22: in fact half my block has christmas lights on
AHellAngel22: it is the forgotten holiday
AHellAngel22: it isn't commercialized like christmas
xSoCcErChIcKx10: :'(
xSoCcErChIcKx10: this is pissing me off!!!
AHellAngel22: alright you digressed now come back
AHellAngel22: ok anger is good let it out
xSoCcErChIcKx10: i want a chainsaw now to chop up y radio now
xSoCcErChIcKx10: my*
AHellAngel22: lol
xSoCcErChIcKx10: this really makes me mad u have no idea lol
AHellAngel22: well tell your mom...go mommy i want a chainsaw for christmas
AHellAngel22: i can see
xSoCcErChIcKx10: when are they lighten up that big tree in the city
AHellAngel22: december something
AHellAngel22: anything else
xSoCcErChIcKx10: oh!!
AHellAngel22: oh what??
xSoCcErChIcKx10: and one tree hill not on tonight bc some bitch has to save fucking christmas!!
xSoCcErChIcKx10: thats bullshit!!!
xSoCcErChIcKx10: again its not even thanksgiving
AHellAngel22: lol samantha yes...they have been previewing that for two weeks
xSoCcErChIcKx10: why does everyone need to save christmas whats are they saving christmas for?
AHellAngel22: its an american girl doll movie
xSoCcErChIcKx10: christmas is a holiday how is it in harm from anything
AHellAngel22: because christmas is over commercialized and no one believes in the magic of it and the goodness that it is supposed to represent instead it is i want i wannt i need i need...greed greed greed
xSoCcErChIcKx10: thats bull
AHellAngel22: not giving and loving and magic...screw parallel structure it doesn't work
AHellAngel22: yes it is
xSoCcErChIcKx10: thats gay!!! im ughhhh maddddd
AHellAngel22: aww don't be mad
AHellAngel22: be happy
AHellAngel22: * sings the whistling song that goes be happy..be happy*
xSoCcErChIcKx10: i lovee thanksgiving and they just totally skip it
xSoCcErChIcKx10: they should have a big turkey that they light up
xSoCcErChIcKx10: and have thanksgiving songs
AHellAngel22: yes except that would frighten the small children
xSoCcErChIcKx10: NOT ME!!!!!!!
AHellAngel22: well yell at the indians and pilgrims for lack of thanksgiving songs
xSoCcErChIcKx10: o0o those fuckers!! i will
xSoCcErChIcKx10: where will i find pilgrims and indians?
AHellAngel22: umm dead probably buried in virgina or maybe mass
AHellAngel22: and indians try the grand canyon
xSoCcErChIcKx10: oh wat good will that hhelp me
AHellAngel22: umm idk
xSoCcErChIcKx10: im even more mad
AHellAngel22: aww
xSoCcErChIcKx10: my light up pen died!!
xSoCcErChIcKx10: it doesnt light up
AHellAngel22: aww thats sad
xSoCcErChIcKx10: it suppose to light up all diff colors and only lights up red
xSoCcErChIcKx10: is that a sign that im gonna die?!?!?
AHellAngel22: thats mean
AHellAngel22: umm no
AHellAngel22: thats black dear
AHellAngel22: red is either love or anger
xSoCcErChIcKx10: WELL IM ANGRY!!!
xSoCcErChIcKx10: >:o
AHellAngel22: well red is angry than
xSoCcErChIcKx10: dumb think!!!
xSoCcErChIcKx10: thing*
xSoCcErChIcKx10: ughh i need to scream
AHellAngel22: oh i think i met my soulmate
AHellAngel22: so scream
xSoCcErChIcKx10 is away at 7:18 PM - she is screaming
AHellAngel22: the only problem is he doesn't know my name yet
ah yes she is still screaming 2 minutes later....3 minutes later...alight she might be a while * an entire 4 minutes* so i'm going to end it here..mwhaa comment
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Alright in honor of the holiday season i figured it would be wise if there where a few interesting... if not honest shopping rules that we women can follow when we buy for our guys...so here they are...
Shopping For A Man
Buying gifts for men is not nearly as complicated as it is for women. Follow these rules and you should have no problems.
Rule #1:
When in doubt - buy him a cordless drill. It does not matter if he already has one. I have a friend who owns 17 and he has yet to complain. As a man, you can never have too many cordless drills. No one knows why.
Rule #2:
If you cannot afford a cordless drill, buy him anything with the word ratchet or socket in it. Men love saying those two words. "Hey George, can I borrow your ratchet?" "OK. By-the-way, are you through with my 3/8-inch socket yet?" Again, no one knows why.
Rule #3:
If you are really, really broke, buy him anything for his car. A 99-cent ice scraper, a small bottle of deicer or something to hang from his rear view mirror. Men love gifts for their cars. No one knows why.
Rule #4:
Do not buy men socks. Do not buy men ties. And never buy men bathrobes. I was told that if God had wanted men to wear bathrobes, he wouldn't have invented Jockey shorts.
Rule #5:
You can buy men new remote controls to replace the ones they have worn out. If you have a lot of money buy your man a big-screen TV with the little picture in the corner. Watch him go wild as he flips, and flips, and flips.
Rule #6:
Do not buy a man any of those fancy liqueurs. If you do, it will sit in a cupboard for 23 years. Real men drink whiskey or beer.
Rule #7:
Do not buy any man industrial-sized canisters of after shave or deodorant. I'm told they do not stink - they are earthy.
Rule #8:
Buy men label makers. Almost as good as cordless drills. Within a couple of weeks there will be labels absolutely everywhere. "Socks. Shorts. Cups. Saucers. Door. Lock. Sink." You get the idea. No one knows why.
Rule #9:
Never buy a man anything that says "some assembly required" on the box. It will ruin his Special Day and he will always have parts left over.
Rule #10:
Good places to shop for men include Northwest Iron Works, Parr Lumber, Home Depot, John Deere, Valley RV Center, and Les Schwab Tire. (NAPA Auto Parts and Sear's Clearance Centers are also excellent men's stores. It doesn't matter if he doesn't know what it is. "From NAPA Auto, eh? Must be something I need. Hey! Isn't this a starter for a '68 Ford Fairlane? Wow! Thanks.")
Rule #11:
Men enjoy danger. That's why they never cook - but they will barbecue. Get him a monster barbecue with a 100-pound propane tank. Tell him the gas line leaks. "Oh the thrill! The challenge! Who wants a hamburger?"
Rule #12:
Tickets to a Red Wing/Lions/Pistons/Tigers game are a smart gift. However, he will not appreciate tickets to "A Retrospective of 19th Century Quilts." Everyone knows why.
Rule #13:
Men love chainsaws. Never, ever, buy a man you love a chainsaw. If you don't know why - please refer to Rule #8 and what happens when he gets a label maker.
Rule #14:
It's hard to beat a really good wheelbarrow or an aluminum extension ladder. Never buy a real man a step ladder. It must be an extension ladder. No one knows why.
Rule #15:
Rope. Men love rope. It takes us back to our cowboy origins, or at least The Boy Scouts. Nothing says love like a hundred feet of 3/8" manila rope. No one knows why.
alright so those are the rules when buying for a man..no go ladies and shop shop shop..spend the mans money and than buy rope like rule 15 says....
Ok update on my life..on sunday went to see finding neverland with jenn...and oh god johnny...how we love him....second to the right and straight on till mornining..anyway jenn sent brian a text message and it was funny but umm i don't think he took it that way...he replied wrong person....and than i went home and got yelled at for like three hours..sorry i didn't call you back jenn but it was late and i was sad....anyway monday...school was blah....tuesday..school..blah omg for my ap psych thing we have 30 slides..oh god thats a lot....tomorrow is the last day for the week ...yay but so much to do this weekend
Thursday- family gathering at my house..*refer to past entry about what a family gathering is in my family*
friday- clean-up....put up christmas villiage...and trees..do outside lights and shop
saturday- shop some more...do homework
sunday.- shop some more and do more homework
and somewhere in all of that find time to have a social life
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